What’s is troubling you today? Is it your Hidradenitis Suppurativa?
Well, if it is you are not alone. I have been managing my HS through diet for the past 11 months. It has been going really well. There have been ups and downs and even some remission.
Mostly I have avoided having any foods or drinks that I know kick my HS off – not too much fruit, no gluten, only raw dairy – no milk, limited night shades and so it goes on.
Remember how I told you I was just about resisting temptation? Well, along came Christmas.
I fell off the wagon. I ate three or four homemade mince pies. I ate some homemade tiramisu. I ate some homemade Eton mess. I ate some homemade Panna cotta. I know, I know, you get it. Lots of puddings. That’s not all. I drank some Baileys. I had some Cadbury’s chocolate. Do you know what? I thoroughly enjoyed all of it!
So now I am suffering. I have had recurring sores and old tracts have opened up, causing me to have pain when I walk. Along came the familiar pattern of having to change dressings whenever I had to use the bathroom. Not only that, but I have had two more spots come up – both in completely new sites, where I have never had HS before. Ever wondered what you would do if it suddenly sprouted in your armpit? Well, here it is! There is nothing I can do, except be a little sad. I have tried to be positive; however, being grateful for the amazing technology of the dressings I use and the fact I get them all free can only carry me so far. I am grateful, but I also want to cry. Is it fair that I can’t enjoy a few desserts over Christmas? It wasn’t even like I had too much!
I know I have the option to go back to the antibiotics. It gives me comfort that if I really cannot get it back under control using my diet (studies show that willpower is finite!), I have a Plan B. Part of me feels like it is selfish to try to manage the disease using diet, as it takes so much longer to heal. I feel sad that my pain and grumpiness affects my family, when it could so easily be rectified if I just took the drugs. We could all be happy. Temporarily.
That said, the results I have seen from eating a balanced, but carefully tailored way of eating have allowed me to live a pain-free life for nearly a year, with no side-effects, no risk of immunity to antibiotics, no need to constantly balance the good bacteria in my body with probiotics. Now, if I can just get there again….
So, what is next? Well, we will see.
I give my body, my mind and my willpower another week. If the pain starts to subside and the wounds begin to heal, I will hold off on the antibiotics. If the pain continues and my quality of life continues to diminish, there will be a (reluctant) call to the Dermatologist and I will take the medication that gave me life back in 2012.
I feel I am able to make choices about how to manage my disease and just for today, that gives me the power to say no to a croissant!
Whatever your choices are today, remember, you are trying your best – be kind to yourself.